I've been going to post this for a while, but I've been nervous about it. I've decided to just do it!
Ok, so ..... we have an announcement to make. After much thought and prayer, we've decided to not adopt. It has never gone well. We have never felt 100% good about it. And we both feel SOOOO much better about it now that we've made the decision.
What we've been worrying about is telling all of you. We don't want you to feel sorry for us. We are really happy. We both feel that there is something out there for us, it just isn't a baby. It's ok. There are some thoughts of, "Well, now what," but we're figuring that out slowly but surely. (There will be more on that in later posts.)
Thank you so much for all of the love, support and prayers. We have a wonderful life. We love each other. We love our 8-1/2 nieces and nephews, our 4 sudo-nieces and nephews, our friends kids who we get to hang out with, and the young women who give us a taste of having teenagers. Most of all, we love our Heavenly Father. We know that He loves us and is there to help us. It's been an amazingly easy decision. I prayed so long for Him to heal me and He has, just not the way I thought I needed.
I hope you know how much I love the plan of happiness. I can't even imagine what my life would be like if I didn't know it. It is my life. I know that there is something after this life and that is so comforting to me. Because eternity is so much longer than this life.