Friday, February 15, 2008

After Much Thought

I've been going to post this for a while, but I've been nervous about it. I've decided to just do it!

Ok, so ..... we have an announcement to make. After much thought and prayer, we've decided to not adopt. It has never gone well. We have never felt 100% good about it. And we both feel SOOOO much better about it now that we've made the decision.


What we've been worrying about is telling all of you. We don't want you to feel sorry for us. We are really happy. We both feel that there is something out there for us, it just isn't a baby. It's ok. There are some thoughts of, "Well, now what," but we're figuring that out slowly but surely. (There will be more on that in later posts.)



Thank you so much for all of the love, support and prayers. We have a wonderful life. We love each other. We love our 8-1/2 nieces and nephews, our 4 sudo-nieces and nephews, our friends kids who we get to hang out with, and the young women who give us a taste of having teenagers. Most of all, we love our Heavenly Father. We know that He loves us and is there to help us. It's been an amazingly easy decision. I prayed so long for Him to heal me and He has, just not the way I thought I needed.



I hope you know how much I love the plan of happiness. I can't even imagine what my life would be like if I didn't know it. It is my life. I know that there is something after this life and that is so comforting to me. Because eternity is so much longer than this life.

7 comments:

Angel said...

Wow, what a decision. I am sure that it was very difficult for you to make. I am sure that the past few years have been very up and down. We have thought of you often. Know that we love you!

Jess said...

Ash and Brent, I just want you to know how much we love you and support you in your decision. You are beyond fabulous in all you do. I know the blessings will be poured out to you. Please let us know if you ever need anything!

Court said...

Good job letting us all know. I know that you are Brent are happy with your decision. You are both awesome and we love you tons!

Steve and Jenny Moore said...

Dear Brent and Ashley-
Please know that we support you whatever you decide. We love you and think that you are great!!!

Roy said...

Hey, Ashley! This must have been tough to write, but I wanted to let you know that I, at least, support your decision. Sometimes life throws a few curveballs, and I'm proud of you for taking a swing at this one. We think about you two often!

Julie said...

We couldn't be mad at your for making a decision that is right. It is nice to know that after making a difficult decision you are still smiling- that is a good sign. Love you guys!

John & Laura said...

I'm sorry this has been such a hard time and difficult decision for you. We love you!